best of both worlds

I always feel that I have turned into somebody else once I entered the school compound. Mature, that know-it-all look, strict and many others teacher’s supposed-to-be attitudes. I never faked it, though I might look very different- characteristically. Even though I was practically being hypocrite, but that never made me feel like I was doing it intentionally. The surroundings and people make me do this, it happens so natural. The most important thing which is so weird, I am being so nice towards kids! That’s a record. The fact is I hate social-climbers’ adolescents (off record). But now, I think I might wanna give them a second chance. They have made me change my perception about young kids in a few ways. One thing about me that will always remain the same – that craziest bitch . Come on, I am 23. My body and soul refuse to gobble down that makcikmakcikmak pengantin ‘s attitudes.  That’s the saddest, ok. Because of that, these youngsters love yaw!!

Reality check :

Mature (Hahaha! Currently I am working on being independent. I can say that I am actually 30% mature and still counting.)

That know-it-all look (does anybody here know that I am a COMPLETE IGNORANT?)

Strict (I was a rebellious student back when I was in school, what makes you think that I am gonna follow the rules? I don’t even pay the summons, I rip them up. For the off record – I even kept the students’ mobile phones so that they didn’t get caught – “spot check!”)

But hey, I think I am in love with my job. I love being in these two different worlds. Because I believe that everywhere you go you must learn how to fit in. You must. Masuk kandang harimau, kau kena mengaum. Kalau kau mengembek… ha.. lu pikir la sendiri. Assalammualaikum!.

paradox-esque

Enough.
Remove your make-ups.
Take off your wig.
Those fake tears, I am not buying it anymore.
Stop this drama.

You might be different,
but you’re playing that usual roles.
Stop this drama.

And we, just a bunch of norms-
but in an unlikely circle.
So, stop this drama.

Your script is so last year.
Enough.
Stop this drama.

Show’s over.
You can all go home now.

Ikhlas dari hati turun ke tangan.

Sekali tersilap, aku tak hirau.
Sekali lagi buat silap, aku kerling tajam.
Lagi sekali buat silap, aku beri satu amaran.
Sekian kalinya kau tersilap, aku teriak amaran kedua.
Aku harap ini kali terakhir kau men-sengajakan silap itu,

*Paaaaannngg*

Macam mana?

Apa perasaan makan penampar aku tadi?
Hentikan provokasi.
Aku pantang.

Aku tak perlu orang ulang apa yang aku arah.
Cukup sekadar aku sahaja. Period!

Lagi sekali kau (siapasiapa) ulang,
Mungkin sampai ke tahap pekak
aku kerjakan.

Ps: Aku tahu kau tak buat silap, tapi kau berusaha untuk menjengkelkan aku bukan?

Yang Benar,
Cikgu yang marah!!

“Hell is a teenage girl…”

These are some of the quotes from the movie that really cracked my head.
Genius!
*clap*clap*

Needy Lesnicky:
Jennifer’s evil.
Chip Dove:
I know.
Needy Lesnicky:
No. I mean, she’s actually evil. Not high school evil.

Needy Lesnicky:
I will finish you if I have to.
Jennifer Check:
Ok, you can barely finish gym class.

Jennifer Check:
I think the singer wants me.
Needy Lesnicky:
Only because he thinks you’re a virgin. I heard them talking.
Jennifer Check:
Yeah, right. I’m not even a backdoor-virgin anymore, thanks to Roman. By the way, that *hurts*. I couldn’t even go to flags the next day. I had to stay home and sit on a bag of frozen peas.

Jennifer Check:
I just got Aquamarine on DVD. It’s about a girl who’s, like, half sushi. She must’ve had sex with a blowhole or something.

Jennifer Check:
[Having been stabbed in the stomach and bleeding profusely] Got a tampon?

Needy Lesnicky:
[after Colin asks Jennifer out] Colin’s really nice.
Jennifer Check:
He listens to maggot rock. He wears nail polish. My dick is bigger than his.

Jennifer Check:
I’ll just play hello titty with the bar tender.

I just think that this movie is so funny. Eventhough it is supposed to dark comedy/horror movie. But it made me laughed.
Megan Fox is awesome.

Go, go watch it!!

4.5/5 stars

F.O.C

Kalau duludulu, aku selalu ditegur bila tak mesra dengan orang sekeliling. Bukan tak ramah, pemalu lah kononnya. Barangkali otak aku memang agak lembab untuk mulakan apa-apa perbualan, aku rimas mahu fikir topik apa mahu dibual. Oleh itu, eye contact amat dilarang dalam hidup aku dulu. Sebab aku tak mahu mulakan apa-apa perbualan dengan siapasiapa. Kalau pulang ke kampung dengan makcikmakcik aku pasti jadi amat ralat, kerana dengan orangorang tua ni lagilah payah bagi aku untuk masuk. (-_-”). Tapi, itu dulu. Aku belajar. Cuba kayuh pelanpelan. Dulu memang keyakinan aku di tahap kosong. Sekarang aku sudah mampu berjalan tanpa memandang lantai dan kaki sahaja. Tak susah. Longgarkan otot-otot muka untuk ukir senyuman dengan orang sekeliling, ringankan mulut untuk bercakap. Biar sekadar “Hai” sekalipun. Itu sudah lebih daripada memadai. Yang menghairankan aku, masih ramai lagi orang yang masih belum sedar. Kalau umur setahun jagung, ada toleransi untuk aku tidak pertikai. Ini, belajar kadangkadang lebih tinggi daripada aku, umur pula darab dua kali umur aku. Kalau disapa, apa salahnya paling kurang pun senyum. Kalau muka buat donno and tak dengar sahaja sapaan kita, boleh lagi aku bersabar walaupun dalam hati aku rasa mahu hempas je muka dia kat dinding, ini boleh pula dibalas dengan nada yang seolah-olah kita ni musuh no.1 negara. Hmmmmppphh (dengan nada tak puas hati). Wah, macam ni pun ada kan. Sesen duit kau pun aku tak minta, sayang air liur barangkali. Aku ada banyak lebih, kau mahu? Aku boleh ludahkan.

SENYUM lah.

Itu bahasa yang paling manis, bukan?

Sorority Row

It has been awhile since the last movie I saw in the cinema.
There are tons of great movies I have missed. Damn.

I know it’s kinda lame to watch movie which has been aired few weeks back.
But, like I care!
I miss thriller/horror movies.

Nevertheless,
Sorority Row
failed to satisfy my hunger.
hahahaha! (evil laughter)

Rating: 3/5 stars

Why it’s HOT: I think that the killing weapon is so cool. It is a modified handle for a car part. That’s vicious yaw! The idea of ways to kill those sororities and others is dope. Bottle down the throat is going to be my favorite method! haaha!

Why it’s NOT: More actions, please? It didn’t really trigger my ass to move here and there during the whole movie. Ergh! Kill more. More blood. Less the cat fighting, and the oh-so-we-are-guilty-we-should-have-reported-this-murder-to-the-authorities scenes.

Verdict : The murderer reminds me of the killer in the Urban Legend and Scary Movie (hooded man). Oh, so whatever. It’s an OK movie. Just OK to those who doesn’t really fancy extreme blood scenes, it’s just a mild thriller movie.

FootNote: I am hungry for blood!! miaaaahahahahahaha

Absurd

“I love you, and I do care about you“

“NO!!!”

Now all I gotta do is to learn how to say no.
to reject the unnecessaries.
to object.
to disagree.
to start thinking more about myself, and less about others.

to even let myself breathing in my own space
to even let myself breathing in my own space
to even let myself breathing in my own space

Just Married. =)

Pictures during my cousin’s wedding reception and nikah.
Date: 16 & 17 of October 2009
Venue: Taman Halaman, Ampang & Dewan Perdana Felda, Jalan Semarak.

Congratulations.
Shukri & Yati

The Lippy and The Brain

I may be quite cynical when I talked.
But,
I still know how to use my BRAIN and MOUTH simultaneously
so that nobody would be OFFENDED.

and

I don’t matter if people wanted to be cynical towards me too.
Just that,
PLEASE bring your BRAIN along.
Will ya?

being SINGLE is not a CRIME

I saw the picture we took a few years ago. It is so PERFECT. But, the story behind that fake smile- the bitterest. I should not have fallen over you. I shall never. I won’t. To anyone.

I saw the picture we took a few years ago. It is so PERFECT. But, the story behind that fake smile- the bitterest. I should not have fallen over you. I shall never. I won’t. To anyone.